Never fool myself that my dreams will come true...

It is a long time since I wrote my last post.

It is a long time (about 4 months) that I am studying for an exam that tomorrow, probably, I won't pass getting the result I have been working for and I will have to give up for this month... this means I have to wait longer, for other months of my life that start looking wasted... once again.

I star thinking that it's how it has to be...

Is it my fault? Probably. Probably I haven't been strong enough... but something has changed. 

There is more pain, probably I am tired too, but these aren't the only news.

There is something that makes my mind run in a different way... a way that probably will never fit with my actual studies... but, I might be wrong... I cannot know for sure. 

Probably a previous "flower" died to let the seeds fly away to other places, toward other situations and life that are unknown now or look too far to be reached...

The only thing I can really decide to do now is to accept all this, I have to keep trying in going ahead. and let the Wind blowing along My Way.

But... why do I still feel unhappy... kinda trapped?

Not in the mood, sorry.

[...]
"Never fool myself that my dreams will come true
being use to trouble I anticipate it
but all the same I hate it, wouldn't you?"
[...]

The last 2 lines are perfect to describe my status today, the first one might be perfect to describe my status in a month or so... once again.

Hope I am wrong.

I wanted to write a post about a picture I shot in May 2006, but I am not in the mood today.

Sorry.